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Friday, February 03, 2006

i so feel like screaming!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant take it any moreeee!!!!! bloody pissed, agitated, confused, upset, irritated. anything and everything that has to concern with getting really pissed or upset or whatever, you name it, i've got it. i dont understand my life. i wish i can just vanish from the surface of the world. then i dont have to face things that i dont even wish to face at all. if only that would just happen one day. i hate my life. hate my life. my life sucks. it's miserable. it's pathetic. my parents are a couple of control freaks, my life is turning upside down, and my studies are dropping drastically. what on earth is happening to me?!
i wish i can just stay 6 years old for EVER. then i'd be care-free, stupid, insane, irritating and not know it at all. i bet that rocks. i envy my sister sometimes. she gets all the attention, more attention than i had when i was her age.
my parents are always complaining about me not scoring high results for my tests and exams, but did they even consider the fact that they were the ones who actually influenced me to what i am now? i would have scored higher results if my mom thought about me more, rather than just thinking "Ai ya, it's okay la, she get all band 2 can liao la." and now, they're scolding the hell out of me for getting band 2 when i was primary school. and they're not only scolding me, they're criticizing me, insulting me. saying that im stupid. i mean, maybe i might be studpid sometimes, but they dont have to say it in my face. it's ridiculous nowadays. they dont allow me to stay out late on a friday night, to watch movies with my friends, and they expect me to do all my tuition homework when they purposely know that i have tons of school homework to complete. and they're always saying that i waste time. i mean, give me a break, what do they want me to be? a bloody robot who does nothing except study all the way without much sleep or eating? (Which is really difficult for me to not do, sleeping and eating i mean)
it's just three words to describe my life:

MY LIFE SUCKS

thankyouverymuch.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yours truly,
*completely agitated,

spinning a tale ; @ 6:14 pm
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