philosophy is what you read off the cereal box

Friday, October 27, 2006

so it's been ages since i actually updated my blog. just a tad too lazy to get up and take the wire that connects my internet. (yes, my dad took the power cable again 'cos i was *i quote* 'not studying hard enough'.)
anyway, yesterday was the physics practical for Os, and all i have to say is that i royally screwed it up big time. what am i suppose to do anyway? i completely blanked out at that moment in time when i stared at the lens that they provided for the experiment. ohmygodddd.... im like so dead already now. i have no idea how am i suppose to pull my physics grade up, and if i dont do well for my physics (and my chemistry sucks big time, i dont understand a single chemical term that sprouts out from my teacher), there goes my whole L1R5 thingie since my science is like so dead.
well, i know i have to stop thinking about the physics prac now and concentrate on the written, and try to waggle more marks from chemistry (if i actually can).

i wish this whole exam thing can just end now. why on earth did the human species invented the word examination?! that's the worst word on earth. i fear it more than i fear armageddon!!!

now im officially broke. mama darling refuse to give me any allowance, and i have no money to go shopping (for nice nice clothes, not books okay. not books.) how is ten dollars gonna support me for my day of meal?! i eat too much, i know, but i cant help it if i crave for food. they smell and taste nice. (well, almost all of them...) yes, then mama would go to say it isnt wrong for me to eat that much, but i keep eating expensive food, that's gonna burn a hole through my pocket (and it's not even deep).
sad case, i know. i live in a very, VERY sad world. everyone's sad in the head.

i dont understand what's with you and the whole 'paranoia' thing. i dont understand why'd you always think that what ever that he wrote was meant to be referred to you. he's a player and you know he is, so what's the point of being so hung up about what he wrote? you need to get it into your head, you're not the only person that he likes. he plays with girls' head. it's time you snap out of it, and stop wasting your precious tears on him. or even your limited time. he ain't worth it girl.

feelings can be hurt by something that wasnt meant to be said, wasnt meant to be seen. no one knows what we are feeling, and we cant judge what others are feeling. it may hurt to know that you may not take me seriously, but im trying my darnest not to let it show. it's completely wrong for me to channel all the hurt into anger, (and i know im wrong for that) but maybe it mightn't have gotten that bad if you watched what you say. because people's feelings can be bruised a tad too easily. maybe it's because you dont take me seriously at all. that's why.

ah!!! my hair's dropping!! remind me to cut my hair. chop it short! (:

spinning a tale ; @ 12:02 pm
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