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Monday, December 25, 2006

happy christmas and merry new year (:
christmas eve's yesterday and my parents had this barbecue party. got to invite a couple of my friends, huiyi, xuejing, aaron, edward, weicheang. too bad christie didn't come. it was fun. really. although i'm not such a big fan of barbecues. never eat much at barbecues in the first place. huiyi, aaron, edward and weicheang stayed over at my house for a countdown, which turned out to be a sleepover. was watching mr and mrs smith before switching it to constantine. i'll leave out the unpleasant parts of the night. but christmas was good and bad. depending on how you look at it. but i've had better christmases. but it was cool meeting edward, he was one really cool guy. i think my sister's completely charmed by him. who wouldn't if you loaned your psp to an eight-years-old spoiled-brat? it's a mighty high danger of it being destroyed.

oh good, i'm a dreamer now aren't i? isn't that just the damn saddest thing? realising that your daughter's not going to be some architect or someone better? regretting now already aren't you? about having me in the first place. after 16 years, it's a bit too late, don't you think? well, better late than never right? go ahead and be disappointed in me. besides, i seem to disappoint everyone don't i? disappointing you won't be another blow to my pathetically small ego will it? 16 years of listening to you talk about how smart someone else is, how thoughtful another person is, really bruise your ego, you know that? oh, you probably won't, because it's me you're pin-pointing, not you. seems like i'm the dumbest person in the family ain't i? everything that goes wrong's my fault. i get the blame. well, i'm totally immune to it already. after 16 years, you might be surprised how you can choose what to listen and what not to listen you know. skipping forward to the next 10 more years would just bring joy into my life, cuz it just doesn't seem to include you at all. i don't need someone to tell me how i should run my life, i don't need someone to tell me when i have to be home, where i have to go. i think you've forgotten that i'm not the same person that i was. i'll prove you wrong. i'll make sure you see what i will become. and i will become someone more successful than you are, and i swear i won't need your help anymore.

spinning a tale ; @ 8:53 pm
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