philosophy is what you read off the cereal box

Thursday, February 08, 2007

what's worse than having butterflies in your stomach?

okay. obviously freaking out now won't do me any good. but i AM FREAKING OUT THIS MOMENT.
i now know why i never really did well in exams. my parents never gave me their freaking support. for goodness sake, my dad's like looking down on me right now? he's like "ho ho, tomorrow you don't dare to come back cuz you'll score very badly."
and then i'm like "mum! look at daddy!"
and then my mum's like "i don't care. if you studied and put in enough effort, you will do well. if not, then good luck to you."
and then my dad's like "from next week onwards, somebody don't have to go to school! she's going out to work!" (that's in the interpretation that i don't do well and i don't get into either jc or poly and the only school that will want me is ite.)
i feel like crying right now ? but the tears just won't come.
maybe it'll be better if i didn't survive in the first place?
even my aunt sent me a message "call or msg me the news tomorrow okay?"
it's NOT EVEN THE RESULTS YET AND SHE'S TELLING ME TO TELL HER HOW I DID! NO WONDER I'M HAVING HYPERVENTILATION!
I'M SO FREAKING DEAD. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HIT ME TOMORROW WHEN I RECEIVE THE RESULTS. I MAY JUST DROP DEAD AND DIE ON THE SPOT WHEN I SEE THE RESULTS.
maybe i should just die now and end that misery. i don't wanna see the results. i'm going to run home tomorrow after receiving the results.
i totally think i screwed up the paper now. come to think about it, i sat for the bloody paper with an empty brain. i just totally blanked out.
i feel like crying now.
why does life have to suck sooooo bad?

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