philosophy is what you read off the cereal box

Monday, October 01, 2007

"i don't want to go on being afraid of what's behind the cupboard door."

Runaway Train - Busted
Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
Was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
I promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep there's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train, never going back
Runaway on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

And everything is cut and dry,
Day and night, earth and sky,
Somehow I just don't believe it

Runaway train, never going back
Runaway on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train, never going back
Runaway on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Runaway train, never coming back
Runaway train, tearing up the tracks
Runaway train, burning in my veins
I run away but it always seems the same

This song is just the saddest song on earth. it's originally sung by soul asylum.
just kinda realised that oldies are like the best songs. it's like ten times better than bubblegum pop or rock songs that never mean anything except for you to go banging your head.
and not to mention, they're just a mess of music, completely horrible, i say.
anyway, i was supposed to go studying with delphne, annabelle, melissa and bronson today. but melissa messaged me in the morning (woke me up too), and told me that her brother was around and she couldn't leave the house, and i really didn't have the mood to go all the way to bishan to study at the library. okay. let's just face it, i'm the laziest person on earth. but i didn't have enough sleep last night, you can't blame me! and the worst thing is that when i told annabelle and delphne (after a seriously long time of contemplation) that i wasn't going to meet them at the library (sorry guys!), the stupid bunch of blanglahs downstairs started DIGGING THE GOD DAMN ROAD! AUGH! i couldn't go back to sleep! that's the WORST thing of all. took me quite a while to go back to sleep. god knows what is WRONG with LTA. why are they always digging the bloody road? digging, putting it back, then digging again, then putting it back again. it always happens at least twice a year! how am i supposed to sleep for heaven's sake?! and it's children's day today! don't they understand that poor kids like my sister wants to sleep? like for once in their entire life (okay, not really entire life, like maybe for once in quite a long while) to sleep in on a weekday?
AHHHH
and then bronson called me, and i woke up.
and i couldn't go back to sleep.
besides it was already to quote "15 minutes to twelve"
but who said i couldn't laze around in bed for another half hour?
anyway, gotta rush. i haven't started on brave new world. AH!

spinning a tale ; @ 5:28 pm
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