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Monday, January 07, 2008

when your life is just another blank page of paper.

apparently, life just keeps playing its cruel game over and over again. or rather, the education system just play its cruel game. kind of make people wonder why more and more students are seeing the psychiatrists or going for counseling. but i don't think we can just blame the education system for causing all these stress. what about our parents, our peers and our society? we're now living in a society where everyone's fighting to be the best (i.e.: see the 'kiasu' nature of Singapore). but seriously, what's the point, when you only get more stressed in the process? is it really worth it? everyday, my mum just drills my sister with math, science and all the weird bullcrap. she's been doing so ever since she was 5. for heaven's sake, she was only 5! she's still young! and to think that when i was 5, i was still jumping on sofas and falling down and getting scars all over my body. and she's 5 and doing weird math and learning chinese characters that i've never seen before in my entire life. (she was 5, i was 13) and now, every day my mum screams at my sister, "YOU STUPID GIRL! CAN'T YOU GET THE STUPID THING I TOLD YOU STRAIGHT? IT'S 3! NOT 2! 3! LIKE THAT HOW TO GET BAND 1? HOW TO GET 90 AND ABOVE? HOW TO GO INTO THE TOP CLASS? LIKE THAT YOU DON'T NEED TO CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY WITH YOUR CLASSMATES ANYMORE!"
it's kind of appalling, to think that my parents are resorting to such measures to get my sister to study. do children really have to be rewarded with monetary prizes or rewards that they desire and crave for so much? if so, then what's the point in studying, if it isn't for you to gain more knowledge, to improve your skills and such.
and parents are piling up on the child's curriculum. extra tuition, extra IQ lessons, extra programs that are similar to the gifted program, extra lessons that teaches your child what questions are going to come out for the GEP test. is it really worth while? i just kind of wonder, can the child really breathe under all that pressure? is he even having an ideal childhood? where children just spend their years blabbering nonsense and making mistakes without being screamed at, shouted at.
and talking about the gifted program. it's an elitist program, no? no i don't deny that the kids who entered the gifted program are gifted (like duh. doesn't the name even tell you that? - or maybe they have gotten in because they 'studied' for it - by taking the lessons). but do they really have the EQ to match the IQ that they have? are they really able to converse with normal people like you and i? i could still remember when it was after the PSLE when i was p6. my class was separated and we had to join the gep class. it was like putting two different species of animals together. we couldn't talk to them, and they couldn't talk to us. why? we didn't understand each other. they could be sprouting weird scientific terms for all i know (although i have to admit, i didn't really approach any of them. i was too intimidated).

with all the stress in this sunny little island, i still don't understand my rationale for entering a jc - since i knew that the pressure was going to be big (but i never realise it was going to be THIS big.). therefore, i can conclude, i made a mess out of my life.

p.s. if i offended anyone about the gep thing, i beg your pardon, but it is just merely my own point of view.

spinning a tale ; @ 9:46 pm
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